क्या निराश हुआ जाए?

It has been raining here at Pune regularly since last month. In Pune, rainy days are worst to drive in a city. The roads will start seeing water logging and potholes will slowly appear and then grow rapidly. You need to have certain level of driving expertise to successfully avoid potholes. We usually don’t have separate footpaths for walking people and if there are some footpaths they are not in condition where people can walk. Usually people walk at the sides of the road. In rainy season to avoid the rain water accumulated at sides of the road, people start walking at the middle of the road. Thus for me it’s really frustrating to drive on city roads in monsoon season. But I had to. So what do I do? I keep on managing myself to somehow drive safely and decrying the system, government and everyone who looks like closely or remotely associated with city planning and management. Few days back I drove to buy groceries for this month. I was feeling frustrated after that small drive to the shop and somehow search to park my small car. On top of that, the prices of essential commodities made me feel totally down, dejected. In recent times, every month when I see my groceries bill, I start feeling uncomfortable and what can I do maximum? I start criticizing the system, the government and the entire setup. I feel frustrated, helpless and hopeless. While driving down back to home, I was in full swing to criticize everything and express my anguish. Mostly the finance ministry to tackling the inflation. I was trying to find out where they spend majority of tax money they deduct from my pay cheque including the education cess. I still see the same poor children begging on the traffic lights. Where does the tax money go? By now I felt its biggest life time puzzle for me. I thought enough is enough I should express my anguish in my blog. I should write a hard hitting blog to express my anguish, unhappiness, frustration and everything. I should express my thought that how hopeless I feel at road, at shop, when I go out of my home.

Next day I reached office early morning. It was still raining outside. Most of the employees had not reached office. I planned to organize my thoughts before writing my blog. I wanted to make my blog hard hitting and effective. To breathe fresh ideas; I walked into dry pantry of my office and started looking out of the office thru the big glass window. Looked like rain had just stopped and traffic was in full swing on the road. People were rushing to their offices, schools, and workplaces. It was still not very clear sky but not too dark too. Freshness after the small spell of rain was visible. All of the sudden I observed three small girls (looked from very poor background) in dirty, untidy school uniforms with school bags, barefooted enjoying the water logged on the road and rushing towards their school. Looked like they were in hurry to join the government school which is few meters away on the other side of road. I kept on looking at them by the time they disappeared from my sight. I had finished my cup of tea in dry pantry. I started walking back to my seat, I had abandoned my idea of writing a blog to express my thoughts that time had come to feel hopeless.